Public File for KBCW-TV / KBCW 44 Cable 12. If your child will play baseball or softball this spring, youll need to stock up on appropriate clothing and equipment. West's family urges anyone with information about the case is asked to contact Scott Dudek, their investigator, who can be reached at 925-705-8328. similar to cancer ads, etc. I guess I have started to realize its not my faultits no ones fault when a loved one commits suicide. I have battled the thoughts of suicide for many years but after I had children those thoughts died. The corpse was pulled from the water by the Coast Guard a mile from the bridge 20 minutes later. Im sorry to hear of your loss I was able to make it out of the hopelessness and despair that led to my attempt. Despite having to raise two young children alone with barely a cent to her name, Lorraine refused many offers from news agencies to sell the film of her husbands demise. Sydneys father believes that there is someone that may have seen something. / CBS San Francisco. This research, though 35 years old, still holds true. But things went wrong for Dusty as he climbed the rails to attempt the feat. We cannot overlook that 10% of people who survive a suicide attempt do go on to die by suicide. :A Follow-up Study of Suicide Attempters fromthe Golden Gate Bridge.. Leads continue to come in, her parents said. They're asking anyone "who may have been walking, biking, running, who commute over the bridge particularly Wednesday mornings at that time" to share information. He and his wife lived in Tracy and had an adorable . As the deaths of Kate Spade and Anthony Bourdain draw attention to the public health crisis of depression and mental illness, Megyn Kelly TODAY welcomes Kevi. It was in 1984. You cant will people to live. 2023 Audacy, Inc. All rights reserved. The chances of surviving are less than 1.5%, and almost zero if the feet don't hit first. Too, people who attempt suicide may receive the help they need afterwards. San Francisco Police have previously said the teenager "is considered at risk due to depression." Video footage from the bridge has been carefully reviewed by investigators but due to foggy and smoky conditions camera views where obstructed making it impossible to tell her exact location on the bridge. He had lost two fingers in a knife fight on the set of the movie "Scarface." I saw him hit the water like a bullet, said his wife. Horrified spectators screamed and mothers covered their childrens eyes as Chief Sundowns lifeless body bobbed under the bridge and out to sea. There are some reports that Sydney may have suffered from depression. I address the myth of inevitable suicide in this post. I am sure your mum will be watching over you, so sad that she caused you so much pain, please seek help, you are precious, with love xxx. For more information, please see our West is 5'10" and slender at 130 pounds, with blue eyes and light brown hair. The most intuitive reason is that suicidal crises are, by their nature, temporary. Parents hope key to teen's disappearance is with passerby on Golden Gate Bridge, How one storm system wreaked havoc from coast to coast, Californians await key decisions from reparations task force, Bankman-Fried might use flip phone under stricter bail plan, Woman accused of killing ill husband released from jail, Alaska's arduous Iditarod kicks off with ceremonial start, was initially thought to have last been seen or heard from early the morning of September 30 in the Crissy Field area. For those who are thinking about suicide, I know what happens after youre gone isnt part of the thought process, but believe me, you might end your pain, but the trajectory of pain caused to others is also insurmountable. 19-year-old Sydney West was last seen Sept. 30. 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While in Australia she started blogging about beginning to experience bouts of depression on top of her anxiety. suicide sometimes defies even the best efforts to thwart it, University of Denver Graduate School of Social Work, http://www.SpeakingOfSuicide.com/resources/#immediatehelp, If Only: Self-Blame After a Loved Ones Suicide, You Cant Do Everything: Limitations in Helping a Suicidal Person, a meta-analysis of numerous studies that looked at bridges suicide barriers, Generally, research into method substitution, 10 Things Not to Say to a Suicidal Person. Ive been hospitalized 4 times in the past 6 weeks, after my 9th suicide attempt. She was carrying a black backpack and her light brown hair was pulled back into a bun. For example, upon hearing me take total responsibility for the failure of my first marriage a gifted woman who is a counselor and pastor said, I typically find that both parties share responsibility equally. 1998 - 2023 Nexstar Media Inc. | All Rights Reserved. But overall, the evidence is that prevention is not simply a temporary delay of death. T he Golden Gate Bridge is one of the top suicide sites in the world, surpassed only by the Yangtze River Bridge in Nanjing, China.People have jumped off of the bridge for nearly as long as it's been accessible to the public; the first recorded suicide a World War I veteran suspected to have suffered from post-traumatic stress disorder took place less than three months after the . That changes things. Any suggestions? User account menu. Case Contact Information: SFPD at 415-575-444 or text TIP411 (Start your message with SFPD) Or contact: private investigator Scott Dudek at 925-705-8328 or dudek.associates@gmail.com, *there is a reward for information that leads to her location and return, For more info: https://findsydneywest.com/ Facebook: Find Sydney West Instagram @find_sydney_west Polly Klaas Foundation: https://www.pollyklaas.org/missing-children/sydney-west/, Sources: https://pleasantonweekly.com/news/2021/09/30/what-a-week-find-sydney-west https://www.kron4.com/news/bay-area/searching-for-sydney-san-francisco-police-still-asking-for-publics-help/?fbclid=IwAR2uVE3anCjr5EvpUerTiD6JZxCAENR83-xIRz3TRzAfRuGckyYFzRqnobM https://storiesoftheunsolved.com/2020/11/27/the-disappearance-of-sydney-west/. The details of your life will, of course, be different but we have our humanness in common. Thank you. I lost my boyfriend to suicide two years ago and I have not been able to forgive myself. It's not hard to kill yourself at the Golden Gate bridge. "There were many people in that vicinity during that time," said Mr. West. This is perhaps why only one of Rhodes' three small parachutes opened, doing nothing to slow him down. If all else fails do something drastic. My husband killed himself 6 weeks ago at home to put a closure on our marital problem. A jump off the Golden Gate Bridge takes around four seconds, during which a person will reach a speed of 80 mphbefore smashing into the water's surface like concrete. Dont believe anyone who tells you differently. God will come through for you but you have to make an attempt. SF]. According to San Francisco Police Department (SFPD) her family reported her missing two days after she was last seen on Oct 2, 2020. I want you to know you are loveable and precious. There is only a 4ft safety rail separating the sidewalk from the void, and 98% of suicide attempts there have succeeded. Many self harm injuries, stitches. Everything says Get help. A. She is an amazing musician. We certainly do need to continue educating people about suicide prevention, including the reality that most people who survive a suicide attempt choose life afterwards. West returned to the Bay Area for college at UC Berkeley after her family moved from Pleasanton to North Carolina several years ago. Your comments are false. Maybe I didnt want to think he could actually do it. She was last seen around 6:45 am when she was dropped off by a rideshare driver. I hope you can find peace within. Not having the courage to fulfill my plan, I checked into treatment centers and each time I checked out I sank into suicidal depression again. Rhodes was estranged from his wife Lorraine, who lived in the East Bay in Port Chicago with their two kids, Rocky, 4, and Oowala, 9, but he made arrangements for her to witness the stunt, maybe in the hope that the feat would win her back. I am resigned to staying alive until I die in some other way. The longitude and latitude for the Bridge location is approximately: N 37 Degrees, 49 Minutes, 8.0 Seconds --- W 122 Degrees, 28 Minutes, 40.6 Seconds. I fantasize a lot about suicide. But the other day I told him that and now hes moving in with me again so my life is going good again! He had a gun in the house that he never used, was trying to sell, I didnt even think of it during this time. They would split the profits from the film 50/50. Maybe in order to evade authorities who had refused permission to allow the jump legally 18 months earlier, he removed the weighted boots that were intended to keep him upright during the plunge. I saw the signs, the depression, his feelings of hopelessness, but somehow its easier to see the signs after it happens and not while you are in the throes of this emotional rollercoaster. Has he tried cognitive behavior therapy? Here I thought I just occasionally drank too much. Turns out, it was a recording of Sydney singing. "We have a lot of people that are asking us for information.". I tried commiting suicide and ended up brain dead Then after I got out of the coma, I was put in rehab for 11 months where I kept trying to break my neck and die because I missed my fiance so much (he wasnt allowed to visit me because he had attempted suicide with me too since he didnt want to live without me). In this clinical case conference, the authors begin by presenting vignettes to capture the diversity of bridge suicide. Why Prevent Suicide? So it is with anything else, including suicidal thoughts. Michael Horan at 415-553-1028 or the family's private investigator at 925-705-8328. "This will be the biggest jump of my life," he told her. Your message here is a good one. Anyone with information about Sydneys whereabouts is asked to contact private investigator Scott Dudek by texting or calling 925-705-8328. People are stupid. Maybe some of the posts on this site could be helpful to him? I use to hate her for wanting to leave me, got diagnosed w depression at 15 have done so many therapy sessions. Saving Lives at the Golden Gate Bridge. But the cameras lost sight of her because of heavy fog, making it impossible to know what happened. I live with a higher purpose now, but prior to my children I went through hell and constantly entertained the thought of killing myself. You also can find other places to get help by phone, email, chat, or text at http://www.SpeakingOfSuicide.com/resources/#immediatehelp. January 25, 2021 / 11:03 AM For me, the will to live kicked in. And now I have the means to do it. I meant it, and I almost succeeded. Dressed in a blue sweatshirt, leggings and Vans slip-on sneakers, the 19-year-old college student last contacted her family the day before with a lengthy phone call to her dad, Jay West. Dec. 11, 2019 Updated: Dec. 12, 2019 8:06 a.m. 5. Healthcare sucks, Government sucks, Law Enforcement Sucks, the economy sucks, the housing market, job, market, and prospects suck, no body likes me, including myself, and I really dont like anyone else either. r/redsox. This material may not be published, broadcast, rewritten, or redistributed. I died that day too. Lorraine Rhodes was destitute, and asked Show Folks of America to help pay for the funeral, which they did. Wests parents confirmed in a new video released late Thursday she was last seen shortly before 7 a.m. on the Golden Gate Bridge. They planned to reconvene in L.A. the following day to hatch a plan to monetize the footage. It is also possible she was wearing eyeglasses instead of contact lenses. Woke up yesterday and realized I needed to make another pilgrimage before the series begins. Sign promoting a 24/7 crisis text line on the Golden Gate Bridge. And I got very drunk every time I drank after that, which was quite often. She replied, She probably figured she could fix you. This was the beginning of my recognition of the fact that I wasnt the horrible person I made myself out to be, in fact, my story is very much like a lot of alcoholics Ive met. I wish everyone could receive this gift, and I am grateful that you and others have done so! 2021 CBS Broadcasting Inc. All Rights Reserved. West was last seen on the Golden Gate Bridge onSept. 30, 2020 just before 7 a.m., according to the San Francisco Police Department. 18 I held a gun to my head in my backyard w my finger on the trigger. The footage taken by Guzman didn't make the news, but was watched by a small, select group: the San Francisco coroners jury, which quickly ruled a case of accidental death from drowning a week later. Had she jumped somebody definitely would have noticed, and it would've been caught on CCTV (the cameras are placed on light poles so fog does not block). The Golden Gate Bridge, which first opened in May 1937, was the most popular suicide site in the world during the documentary's filming, with approximately 1,200 deaths by 2003. How could I have been so stupid? Someone mustve seen something nothing is being ruled out. Her family has stated that she enjoyed the area around the Golden Gate Bridge, and it was not unlike her to take pictures and go for a walk or run. My name is Steven. "Jump." That's the word Kevin Hines heard in his head on September 25, 2000, as he stood on the Golden Gate Bridge. The four-second fall from the Golden Gate Bridge sends a person plunging 245 feet (75 m) at 75 miles per hour (121 km/h) to . But what if you dont want help? At times I hate myself. I am so glad my attempt did not end in my death. Sydney Harbour Bridge has a suicide prevention barrier. But the cameras lost sight of her because of heavy fog, making it impossible to know what happened toher. Previously, police said she had not been seen or heard from since before dawn, on Sept. 29. Peace be with you Steven. Both my son and I said we woud never consider it again, after that. Anyone in the Bay Area with any information regarding her disappearancecan contact Sgt. It is wonderful that having children seems to have inoculated you against suicidal thoughts. Enter your email address to subscribe to this blog and receive notifications of new posts by email. She vanished without a trace from San Francisco, California, near the Golden Gate Bridge, a popular tourist spot for many. The articles abstract states: Following the interventions, there was an 86% reduction in jumping suicides per year at the sites in question (95% CI 79% to 91%). While living in San Francisco West enjoyed singing and playing the piano for open mic nights around the city. Have had lots of therapy after that. I am a suicide survivor from India. For example, he may be telling himself that the way he feels and is now is the way he will feel and be forever. I wonder if you might benefit from talking with like-minded folks at ChronicSuicideSupport.com. Thank you for providing this site. I am now 49, and I fantasize about suicide knowing I will never actually do it but wishing it was an option. This is certainly true for me: narcissistic mother and sister. And these different medications can be combined at various dosages. In the midst of a struggle with mental illness, Hines got a running start . You definitely are not alone, and it does often feel good to be honest about suicidal thoughts to speak what many people consider to be the unspeakable. "Jump." That's the word Kevin Hines heard in his head on September 25, 2000, as he stood on the Golden Gate Bridge. I also knew that there was no hope whatsoever for what was wrong with me. Andrew Chamings is an editor at SFGATE. Her family is not giving up hope that she is still alive and remains determined to find her. My advice to you or to those considering suicide or attempted suicide, please THINK of your loved one, your family and friends. Her disappearance was every parents worst nightmare. We talked a lot about loving each other. Written forwww.speakingofsuicide.com. Its complicated, Bay Area city cracks top 10 best for sleep: US News, JV talked about health struggles before disappearance, Martinez residents warned not to eat food grown in, Do Not Sell or Share My Personal Information. I just need time to tidy up affairs, belongings, finances, assemble the plan. I still think about suicide, although not as often. What do you tell the ones who still perceive they have no one how do I get through to him? I feel if I constantly feel like this over the years why dont I just die now? "On Aug. 20, 1985, I jumped off the Golden Gate Bridge, and I survived." Ken Baldwin was 28 years old and had just started a family. Since Sept. 30, there has been no activity on her phone or credit cards. The instant regret of jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge did not result in instant mental health recovery once Hines survived. PART OF AUDACY NEWS. I used to believe my problems are so intractable that the only way out of my pain was suicide. Theres just a lack of evidence that shes not with us anyone, Jay West said. Found it was in part due to hormone imbalance along with sugar imbalances, throw in that its winter along with little sleep, emotional bombs going off and I had the perfect storm. 10 Reasons Teens Avoid Telling Parents about Suicidal Thoughts. Simply put, means restriction saves lives. Even though a prior suicide attempt dramatically increases the risk for future suicide, studies have demonstrated that most people who survive a suicide attempt do not go on to die by suicide: There are different possible reasons why people who attempt suicide, or try to make such an attempt, might choose afterward to stay alive. God Bless You. (findsydneywest.com) West was last seen on the morning of Sept. 30 on the iconic bridge. It turns out that I had, and still have, many misconceptions about myself and the people in encounter. SAN FRANCISCO (CBS SF) The family of a UC Berkeley freshman who disappeared last September has offered a $10,000 reward for information in connection with the case. A couple hours. 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If you havent already joined a support group for other suicide loss survivors, that might help you; such groups are available in person and online. It amazes me that the vast majority of suicides are by men, and virtually all of the articles about it are by women. She was last seen September 30, 2020, from the San Francisco area near the Golden Gate Bridge specifically around Crissy field. Thank you for contributing to the discussion. Come home.. 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They have a good, nonjudgmental, and supportive discussions at ChronicSuicideSupport.com/forum/. We interviewed our tech expert, Jaime Vazquez, to learn more about accessible smart home devices. : The Fate of Suicide Attempt Survivors, A Follow-up Study of Suicide Attempters from. Pandora Photos purchased from Fotolia.com. Rhodes was the 90th person to jump to their death from the bridge in its short 11 year history, but the first who wanted to survive. This Walking Pad treadmill made getting 10,000 steps a How to get tickets for Depeche Mode's new tour dates. The night before she disappeared (Sept. 29) she and her father Jay West had a lengthy phone conversation according to her family. You might be helped by connecting with other people who have attempted suicide and can understand not only what can lead a person to do that, but also what comes after.
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